Phases

Recently, God started speaking into my life through the moon. Each time I go outside on a clear night, I'm drawn to its brilliance. It leaves me in awe. 

Three Interesting Facts:
1. The moon reflects the sun
2. The moon shines light into the darkness
3. The moon has a magnetic force that changes the tide

As a follower of Christ, my life should look like the moon. It should reflect the Son and shine His light wherever I go. It should be so full of God’s love that people become jealous. And it should change the tide by directing people to the Lord. What a beautiful parallel!

Now it's time for some real talk. 

Though I am very good at hiding it, I do not have my life together. Jesus saved my soul, but following Him is hard sometimes. Recently, I have been overwhelmed in every area of my life. I’m in the middle of an existential crises and I am not content where I am. Suddenly I'm asking myself questions like, do I really need this degree? Should I drop out and be a makeup artist? Professional organizer? Disney princess?? Will I ever go back to California? Do I just need coffee? (Yes.)

“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’” 

 2 Corinthians 12.9

I know God has a plan for me. Nothing excites me more than thinking about the amazing things He has in store for me! I WANT my life to be like the moon! But right now, those dreams seem so far away... and that's why I get discouraged. Discontent. Exasperated.

When I am overwhelmed, I want to run. Run away, run fast, and run hard. Anywhere to escape being here, in this situation, this mess. Unfortunately, running away is not a practical solution to 98% of most problems (excepting toxic relationships and large spiders). I know that I am exactly where God has called me to be right now, in this phase of my life. 

Phases of life... sounds like the moon again!

During this phase of my life, God's inviting me to obey Him in the small things... to be faithful with little so one day I can be faithful with much. He is using this difficult time to prepare me for His call on my life. I know that if I surrender now, there will be a harvest in the future. And harvest moons are the most beautiful of all.

“Sow for yourselves righteousness, reap the fruit of unfailing love, and break up your unplowed ground; for it is time to seek the Lord, until he comes and showers righteousness on you.”

Hosea 10:12